heart to heart talks

a change of blog

2009-09-26T12:07:00.002+08:00

hello ppl i have moved my blog to http://theeveningsong.onsugar.com

i feel so proud to be a SINGAPOREAN ((:

2009-08-10T14:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.

went to watch NDP. i find this year theme was so much better than last year. and the goodies bag looks much nicer too. lolx. though it will be better if they can sew the logos inside the bag and i will definitely used it. haha. i took the pink one and my brother took the blue. whoohooo. fanastics colours. haha.

i was the one who is super high while my bro just sit there throughout the whole NDP-how can you expect a sick man to so enthu/high?! (quoated by my brother). hope he recover soon (:

2009-08-06T19:48:00.001+08:00

school has started and tomorrow will be my third day of sch and yet here i am dreading for school holidays again )= oh boy. i super-ly loved my timetable to the max, with Wednesday and Thursday no school. lol. though Monday is little torturing for me with 6 long hours of lecture with only 30mins break. ugh. what long day. haha

school has been rather boring because it's not happening at all unlike tp. worst of all i am struggling with econs now. it's a bad sign, unfortunately. so i am going to work harder than anyone else(:

went to ion yesterday. most of the shops are opened but not all. ohh and i realised one more thing, the higher level you are at the most expensive things get. so all the branded stuff are situated at a higher level. lol. oh well, went to try the yumi yogurt. there are more variety to choose from yumi yogurt than yoguru. i like BOTH of them. i have been having yogurt/frozen yogurt craze 3 months back. it's never too full to have a cup of frozen yogurt. so people buy me a jumbo cup and i will be very happy [=

What if I told you it was all meant to be
Would you believe me, would you agree
It's almost that feeling that we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now

looking forward to the long weekends holiday

MY GREATEST FEAR )=

2009-07-29T20:11:00.001+08:00

Fear: the mere sight of the word makes some of us cringe. It is a feeling we have all dealt with at one time or another. In the dictionary, fear is defined as: “a feeling of agitation or anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger.” For most people fear is an unpleasant feeling and it is important that we learn to deal with fear in the best manner possible.

i was aware that most of my fears were stupid--- i just had to get over myself. attention was an inevitable part of life. i couldnt always blend in with scenery. however, i did had a specific worry that was completely valid. non of my family members nor my closest friends know about it. because i am embarrassed to mention. which is odd. why, after all, should one feel self-conscious about going ****? it's not my fault. i feel bad telling people i might be going ****. so what are you guys supposed to say? all you can possibly offer is:"oh dear. how terrible. you poor chap. i'm dreadfully sorry." i soon found the fear of going **** was much worst than the actual fact. i think it's the fear of the unknown that scares us so much.

"we cant let the fear of unknown paralyze us into seclusion. Believe me, life doesn't stop because someone turned off the light."

been crying myself to sleep all night and i am just too afraid to face reality.

ice cream party

2009-07-28T12:54:00.000+08:00

wellwell, met up with alvina finally!! had our girly gossip session at the ice cream chefs. shall we called it the ice cream party?! (=

and i bought a tube home for my family to try.*yummy*

**anyway tzekang do take care of yourself. and we shall meet up soon when you recovered. drink more water and have an early rest! you see, b'cos of you we have to postpone our tuktuk to some other times. lolx.!**

2009-07-27T20:15:00.002+08:00

had my fourth driving lesson today. O.M.G
it is a bad day. first i couldnt apply for my PDL as i forgot to bring my IC and also my ez-link card.
nothing to proved that i am EVANGELINE WONG BAO XIAN!!!!!!
ugh. felt so irriated by myself.
worst of all my instructor told me that my progression was slow and he was rather fierce as compared to the first two.
andandand it rained today. which makes learning harder.
booohhooo. been thinking if i should convert from manual to learning manual.
ah haix.. it's been bothering me now )=

anyway hohoho. met up with my secondary sch friends recently.
had a good nice chat with them.
I could still remember the days where before and after school, I would hang around the playground to play games like hide-and-seek, ice-cream sticks and all sort of other things.
I spent the next four years in Springfield Secondary School.
Life then is enjoyable and wonderful memories still live inside me.
The four years there mould my character and determined my life, at least that is what I think.
I met the group of good friends who till now are still in frequent contact(=

2009-07-21T17:43:00.002+08:00

I don’t know his name

I don’t know anything

I don’t know why

My heart shakes every time

I want to meet that person

I want to talk with that person

I can feel his breath

Because I always want to be beside him

So, please remember me

My wish is to serve you

Please believe in me

Angels

Descending from the sky

Bring the light of hope

Let my feelings know

That the miracle shall rise'

Please believe me when I say “I love U,always”

I believe in this feeling until the end of time

At the end of the world, we will both ride across that moment

Please believe me when I say “I love U,always”

2009-07-20T22:47:00.009+08:00

i've been having alot of weird dreams recently (like having lizards ban mian with brother. lol. rubbery, chewy, juicy lizards.), save for a few sweet ones (which i really didnt wish to wake up from). the rest were rather unpleasant, probably what you get if there are stuffs within you that hasnt been settled, for weeks, maybe months and even years. and what hurts the most is watching that person you love become a total stranger in your life. days after days, night after nights. the whole moves as i stay still. staring at my plain dark bedroom wall. i broke down, i prayed.

uh. woke up this morning for my driving lesson. driving seems to be getting more and more interesting though. mount the kerb today due to me driving too fast. and i guessed i did inherited my daddy's impatient genes. lol. but yea afterall i guess my progress was only an average.

afterwhich headed town to meet my lovely girls. lol. it's been pretty long since the last time we met. finally the girls are back from the UK. and i had name this as the UK gathering(: misses the two of them so badly. oh and we had our little barter trade session at starbucks. fell in love with the hot caramel and green tea milk. so yea, more varieties to choose from the next time. haha (:
knew lots of deep dark secrets of each other. the-he-she-shall-not-be-named. haha. it was hilarious.

PICTURES OF US =)

2009-07-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

2 MORE WEEKS TILL THE START OF SCHOOL (=

happyhappy me finally get to hit those books soon. ugh! and i also find myself very kaisu la.
be4 the start of school i have been asking my primary school friend to lend me her notes. haha.
i guess it's because of my kaisu-ri-sim that's why i can get this kind of results in poly.
maybe i should be even more kaisu in order to achieved a better GPA. lol.

well and today is my last day of work. apparently it's suppose to end on tuesday. but never mind i am just gonna find excuses not go on that day. it's stock taking and i bet that will be a very tiring thing to do. plus it will be at kovan. ugh!! hopefully camel will go and help them if not it is gonna be a texting thing for the two poor souls. wahahha.

finally can get a break after a spanning 1 week of adidas atrium sales at west coast plaza.
haix.. did something terribly wrong that i have to summit a report regarding the issue. but i must say it's not totally my fault though. haix. anyway it had been settled so ya and thanks ppl for your concerns (: *winks and hugs*
and also i did enjoyed myself working with my colleagues. i am always so luckily to have all the super friendly ones working together. actually i do enjoyed working very much though i will be whining most of the times, ironically. ok that weird but yea, surprisingly it's fun when you have the right bunch of ppl (:

so ya tml will be my second driving lessons. yea. as usual looking forward to it. will be meeting marissa after that (:

GOOD NIGHTS FOLKS.
SWEET DREAMS.

2009-07-11T14:45:00.016+08:00

CATCH UP SESSIONS WEEK

7july (tues)
went to meet vinita and quan jun aka birdy(there is a reason why we gave him that nickname) at tampines 1.
the nearest shopping mall for all of us.
discussed on the subjects selection. ugh!!
i cant wait to hit those book in august. sick of my slacking life.
driving was the reasons why it's hard for me to find a job. sianzz
but had a good nice chat with them.
shall see you guys again on our big family gathering on the 17July2009(FRIDAY) 6pm.

8july (wed)
it was raining heavily.
pushed the meeting time to 1330 instead of 13.
and guessed what i reached there at 1305. super duper early.
called Tze Kang to tell him that i had reached somerset and where is he.
O.M.G he told me he is still at home and will be leaving his house now. ugh!!
andandand i waited for like 40mins.
finished reading the today's paper and he still not here. booohoooo. leg aching.
oh and he finally reached at 1345. oh man.
and we started our shopping ( in search of his hoodie from zara)
ohohoh. 1 more thing. he has a very good appetite.
can finish a bowl of yoshinoya set meal (up size) and half an hour later he had wanton noodle and a cup of tei.
horray. finally found the hoddie that he's looking for.
and i bought a hoodie tooo. lolx.
the red colour hoddie with tom and jerry print on it makes it look soso cute.
irresistible
so ya and thanks for the treat!! (for making me wait so long). ((=

9july (wed)
headed down to katong mall-teo heng to have karaoke session with my colleagues.
realised that aeroplane can really sings well and so is shi yuan.
sobsob i am the only one who cant sing. voice went off pitch. ugh!!
after singing we went to have snow ice.
and walked to parkway to shop.
we spent a total of 20 bucks in the arcade.
waste of money but at the same time i wanna earn the points. haha.
yiru came at 1930 after her work.
it's dinner time and this is what we want:
shiyuan: katong laska
aeroplane: pepper lunch
yiru: nothing in particular (poor intern)
me: tuk tuk thail kitchen.
and the verdict was mos burger in the end. wahahaha.
after which we had auntie anne's for dessert. thanks yiru for the $1 subsidy.
LOVES HANGING OUT WITH YOU GUYS.. smiles

10july(fri)
accompany mummy to aunty's house to have her hair done.
oh and also i baked apple cinnamon cake for them with a little of my aunty's help.
wheeee.
my little cousin of mine ate so much of it.
felt so happy ((=

11july (sat)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AEROPLANE.
oh and also bon vovage shiyuan.
remember to help us buys things back from hongkong X:

2009-07-06T11:43:00.010+08:00

IT'S MY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY [=
SUNDAY FAMILY DAY (:
love weekends to the max.
mom wanna treat me for dinner and since i have been craving for Thai food,
we decided to go tuktuk for dinner.
the food were delicious, especially the clear tom yam soup. yummy
ps: eelin we should have gone there to eat instead of the loving hut. lol

SATURDAY
met up with my bff, LEE EELIN.
we have been friends for 6 years and it's still counting on. woots.
had my yogubliss. hehe.
andand love all the bitching sessions and some crazy moments.

ME AND MY YOGUBLISS

GUARDIANS ANGLE

CHOCOLATE FONDUE

RECIEVE PRESENTS TIME

THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS(:

LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS

FRIDAY

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVANGELINE. HAHA.

not feeling that excited as before maybe due to me having to work.

plus it is also my last day of work.

back to my slacking life till i find another job

after work went out with my colleagues for dinner at ding tai feng.

had my all times favourite xiao long bao. i

t's a busy day man.

and i have to rush home after dinner for cake cutting session with my dearest family.

BLACKFOREST CAKE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVANGELINE

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE

working life

2009-06-26T20:00:00.003+08:00

my colleagues are outgoing type, so there are heaps of fun=)
5 of us including an internship student from tp.
gave nicknames to two of them. areoplane(peiqi) and salty(weixian). haha
most important elements at work!!
we had spice things up at since the first day of work.

here's and update for this week:

been sleeping at 9pm for the past 3 days in order to have my 8hrs sleep.

basicaly report to work just to play card games. apparently as the work flow wasn't heavy.
i am serious.
we played uno, cheat, bridge, snap, heart attack, donkey(played by primary school students, can see how bored we are?!) and blackjack (i won 90cents, not alot though. haha)
we had delivery for the past 2 days, was sick of the mix vegetable rice stall. the operator will go huh, SELETAR AIRPORT??!! where is it?! and we will be like ah, isn't it a prominent place in singapore. haha.
i personally find it very hilarious(:
ohohoh and also we had been bringing different snacks to snack on on every different days.
we tried out different flavors of redondo. only left with the choco mints.
will be getting the giant tin on monday. hopefully it can lasts us for the entire next week.
wowow!! been gaining weight.
made cold phone calls to companies. it kinda sucks to do callings as you will be a tape recorder repeating over and over again):
horray it's weekends again. have to enjoy it before the starts of another week. wheee.

nights people. sweet dreams.
i miss you girls so much, let's meet up soon

I BELIEVE IN SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN

2009-06-22T22:11:00.003+08:00

IT'S THE MONDAY BLUES PEOPLE

IT'S A BORING DAY TODAY. PLEASE LA, THE JOB IS SUPER SLACK.
WHICH MEAN I CAN SIT AND MUNCH ON MY SNACKS WHILE READING STORYBOOKS AND LISTENING TO MUSIC AT THE SAME TIME =)

HOPEFULLY I CAN HIT 48 HRS PER WEEK. I NEED MONEY.
MONEYMONEYMONEY!!

WOKE UP 0545 TODAY. NEVER WAKE UP SO EARLY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. NOT EVEN IN CAMPS. SPEND ALMOST 1/3 OF MY TIME WAITING FOR THE BUSES. *SOBSOB*
HALFWAY THROUGH THE DAY, I FELL ASLEEP FOR 10 MINS. HAHA.
NOW YOU KNOW HOW SLACK IS MY JOB YEA?!
SAW MANYMANY RICH PEOPLE WHO HAVE THEIR OWN PRIVATE JET.

OHOH.. ANDAND THE CANTEEN. OH MY GHOSS. IT'S LIKE A RUN DOWN VILLAGE, WORST THAN PULAU UBIN!! CAN U IMAGINE I HAVE TO BUY FOOD FROM THERE!! THE SOLE CANTEEN THEY HAVE, UGH!

don think anything interesting will be happening this week.
niteynights(:

**i hated to waste any part of the night in sleep, but that was inevitable**

2009-06-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

OH NOOOO~~~ UGH!!! WOOF!! RAWR!!!
SUNDAY WILL BE VANISHING IN AN HOUR TIME.
AND MONDAY WILL BE MAKING IT'S WAY SOON....
NOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYY~~~~~~

WILL BE STARTING MY BORING WORKING LIFE FOR THREE WEEKS. DAMN.
AND I AM GOING TO TREASURE EVERY SINGLE WEEKENDS I HAVE(:

HAD CRAZY CONVERSATION WITH CRAZY PPL IN FB.
WILL UPLOAD THE WHOLE COMVERSATION WHEN I AM FREE.
THANKS YOUU CRAZY BUNCH FOR BRIGHTENING UP MY DAY.
LOVES YOU GUYS LOTSLOTS.

WAS SUPPOSE TO SLEEP AT 9 SO AS TO HIT 8HRS SLEEP. BOOOHOOO ):
SAVE ME PEOPLE. I CANT STOP WHINING.

WOOSH~~ I HAVE TO SLEEP NOW.
CTACH ME AROUND.
NITESSS PEOPLE.

2009-06-20T16:16:00.007+08:00

♥HAPPY FATHER'S DAY♥

not looking forward to work.
seletar airport!! yesyes, that's my boring workplace):
have to report work at 8 and it only ends at 7.
it will be a dreadful long 3 weeks for me.

but luckily enough it is a temp job,
which will last for only 3 weeks.
hopefully no OT needed on any other days,
especially on my birthday.

ANY KIND SOULS WANNA BUY ME IPOD CLASSIC?!
randomness

hohoho. woke up pretty early these few days.
met sunshine in the morning to go parkway.
it's been pretty long since i last went there.
drank our favorite bubble tea on our way(: wheeeee..

in search for the hand phone strip and
her boyf's adidas shirt.
after a long hunt, we still couldn't find any nice ones.
as you know sales items are like those not popular or have some defects): lolx

we had bak kut teh for lunch.
yum yum.
and most importantly it's cheap!!!

andandand father's day celebration later on tonight wheeee.

19 JUNE 2008

went marina square and suntec plus parkway with amelia(:
shall give her a nickname miss sunshine.
cos that's her favorite shirt.
you are my sunshine. haha.

MANGO HAVING SALES!!!!
stupid me forgot that mango's fitting room very small.
and guess what i said.
can the two of us share one fitting room?!

it was horrendous inside!!
the fitting room was small enough to fit in one.
but now it has to fit in two of us.
we kept knocking into each other.

tsktsktsk.
learned from the lesson.
never to share a fitting room.
wahhaha.

STARBUCKS LOVELY MOMENTS(:

sunshine, you were gone for good 2 hrs to bishan for an interview.
andand there was this lonely girl sitting in starbucks,
slowly sipping her caramel frap
(:

thanks sunshine for your lovely pink ipod.
those songs are really great and they help to kill boredom(:
your ipod had save my day!!
love ya ("V")

2009-06-16T21:51:00.005+08:00

happened to watch this cartoon on disney channel and
fell in love with it once again(:
have sososo many sweet memories of my childhood.

O Stars and Dreams and Gentle Night;
O Night and Stars return!
And hide me from the hostile light
that does not warm, but burn

♥ precious moments ♥

2009-06-12T20:25:00.006+08:00

friday

Ger's 20th birthday celebration. surprisingly didn't have to wait too long for the guys.
seems like i was over dress. haha.
eelin praised me twice today. the first time she's doing that.
veryvery happy. i was over the moon. *SMILESMILE*
and for once she couldn't recognise me when i come walking towards her. haha.
we went ajisen to have our dinner. total bill was 189 plus for 11 people.
after which went to balcony to have a drink.
the drink cost 259.60. sososo expensive la.
all of us turns so red, like tomato. haha.

THIS IS THE DRINK THAT COST 259.60

the lovely couple(:

the guys so shy. haha.

saturday to tuesday

here is an update on my stay in sentosa.
it was nothing but funfunfun(:
we had swimming competitions, table tennis games, arcade and manymany more to name.
i felt that i am the luckiest/fortunate person on earth to have such a wonderful parents and brother.

♥♥♥ LOVES THEM LOTS ♥♥♥

so childish of us, but we enjoyed ourselves

swimming time(:

family bonding time(:
see!! they are building the roller coaster. woohoo.
cant wait for the completion of the resort world.
and felt so sad for the workers, they have to work 24/7 all day round.
the weather was freaking hot these days. can get heat stroke. so poor thing.
family bonding day(:

cars on sales. haha

thursday and friday

went to the cdc to have my e-trails and ftt, with joycelyn.
we have crap so much today. all the good old times in secondary.
cant believe that we missed our chemistry teacher sososo much.
the e-trail was so much tougher than the actual test itself.
GOODNEWS: I HAVE PASSED MY FTT(:
happyhappy me.
now i can concentrate on my driving in july.

plusplusplus, i really want that event job sososo much.
in need of cash. hurry send me the details pls!!!!!!!

HERE COMES ANOTHER WEEKENDS((:
♥ HEARTS THEM ALL ♥

2009-06-05T13:06:00.004+08:00

THIS HAS BEEN THE WEEKENDS I BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO.

tomorrow i will be checking-in to rasa-sentosa resort for a spanning 4 days with my lovely family to celebrate mummy's birthday. andandand at the meantime get a nice sexy tan. haha.
time for some relaxation and family bonding!! (:

bugis at five plus to get my contact lens done.
then town at 6 with lin and her friends to celebrate ger's birthday.
i realised there are soso many june babies. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDDAY TO YOU ALL!!
hopefully, i wont get bored, don really get to know her friends well):
plusplus they better not be late and be indecisive of where to dine in!!
i don feel good waiting with an empty/hungry stomach. haha.

ohdear. ftt is on next thurs, haven even read up.
having the mentality that the etrail will get me through.
like how i passed my btt. ouch!

more pictures coming up.
woosh off i go! tada(:

2009-06-04T20:49:00.008+08:00

ran to the ECP with my brother.
time to get fit***

sat at the jetty do some self reflection.
the finger tip of the wind brushes against my cheek
and the smell of the ocean to my nose makes me feel so so refreshing.

I walk along the tip of the sea,
That’s where my feet leave prints to be.
I walk all the way to the end of the land,
The land that holds this beautiful sand.

had my favourite bubble tea again, on three consecutive days(:

andandand i am craving for this now :
yoguru yogurt + fresh, natural toppings = addictingly delicious (:

WEEKENDS COMING, HAVE A GREAT NIGHTSS!! LOVELOVES

dream within a dream!

2009-06-03T19:56:00.008+08:00

oh ah ma made meesiam for lunch, which is always good! yummylicious
and had chicken rice and bubble tea for dinner (:
fatteningfatteningfattening.
ohhwell skip 50 times today, was just too lazy to go for a run in east coast.

lin couldnt stop hao lian-ing about her how handsome is her boyf and complaining about her work to me. girl ar, while you are counting down to the number of days left to the last day of your work you are also counting down to my birthday. PRESENTS FULL OF SURPRISES FOR ME (:
hopes u see this!!! (*HINTHINTHINT*)

horray, my darlings will be coming back from the uk soon. happyhappy me. 7 more days for marissa and 24 more days for rebecca.
will be able to see you girls whenever wherever i want.
Missing you badly (:
bring backs lots of sweets and chocolate for me okie. i’ll plan the schedule of things to be done.

i need my sleep very badly, i have a thumping headache. nightsnights.

whenever, i need help you'll be there
guiding me through.
you brought me out from the dark side
and let me see the wonderful world of love.
slowly our relation got distance,
as you know i like you;
you tried to avoid me.
i plucked up my courage and deleted all the memories i had with you.
i have been wondering why,
me, myself could not explain too.
i carefully sealed my heart away.

2009-06-03T14:04:00.003+08:00

yesterday was crazy fun.
went Val's house together with YueGhim yesterday for a cake baking session.
he's a friend of mine for like five years and i didn't know he loves and can cook till recently.
our next picnic session, u shall cook k?!
my first cake baking. smashing of bananas was definitely a disgusting thing to do.

the banana cake is sitting at the kitchen counter (:

played bandrock2. my coordination was as usual, lousy.
practice makes perfect.

the cute boyboy who came to play uno-spin and "study"games

val and boyboy

yue ghim and boyboy *he was forced to take this picture*

me and boyboy

val and i

had a good 100 minutes night chat with TK.
our gossip-gossip little session.
phew, was so relieve that i have graduated.
& i miss having you guys with me, i keep thinking back of the good three years before.
all those memories, when laughter and love was so genuine (:

2009-06-02T01:39:00.007+08:00

my new found hobby : editing of blog codes.

i have also anti programming lessons in my poly life.
i had hated it so so much that i would go around asking seniors and friends from other courses to give me their codes. what’s worst was i never changed anything inside. i just don't understand a freaking line. i remembered the lecturer question me one of the lines and i got it wrong. surprisingly i managed to pass the subject.

“I AM LOST WITH NO DIRECTION AND MY FAITH IS SHAKING”

i felt irritated by your replied message. WTF!
can’t you just remember the damn amount of money you were supposed to return me??!!
why must you keep asking?!
& how dare you took the money from Mr Gary when you know you were supposed to return them to me.
when i ask you about it you said “ i am supposed to take it ” and you walked off.
it was photo taking time after our graduation and after which it slipped off my mind.

oh talking about it, woohooo i have graduated from Temasek Polytechnic, Diploma in Biomedical Informatics and Engineering. Time pass real fast. *Woots*

daddy and mummy

let’s come back to where we have stop. it was only on last friday that i realized she still owned me money.
went to call her. Guess what she said. “huh! why must i still pay you i thought i return you already.”
that sentence from her triggers me.
I said “What about the money that I paid and Edmund owned me? Remember we split the amount so each of you owned me $22 which makes it $66?” and she told me that she forgot about and promised to pay me back.

I felt purely disgusted by the way you replied. The story goes like this:

ME: Can you meet me at white sand tomorrow, 2pm instead?

She: Can later?

ME: Like what time?

She: You going Val’s house tomorrow right? How about when you going home that time?

ME: Ya, we going white sand to buy ingredient. But I won’t be going there after that. Like 2.30 can?

She: Okok 2 then. Btw you said you pay 60 right? If I pay you back 44 it will be 66 le.

ME: Hello!! I pay 66 le!! I’ll bring the piece of paper that we wrote how much each of us spent ok? (angry tone)

She: Oh is it? I don’t have the paper so I can’t remember. Cos that time you called and you said 60 and I wasn’t sure so I ask you again. Just like that only. Chill la.

Volcano had erupted. I was totally pissed off so I decided to confront via text message.

Me: I know there are lots of mis-understanding between us. Firstly I not sure why are you giving me cold shoulder, but if it’s because of the photo taking. Then I think we need to talk about it. I know I was in a wrong to lie to you in the first place but that’s because I was left with no other options. Edmund was the one who choice me and he wants me to tell you in a way that won’t affect him. That was why I lie to you about my Malay mono having problem. I guess we should like have a cup of coffee to clear all the mis-understanding. I don’t wish it’s because of this that ruined our 3 yrs long friendship.

*We were very closed friends, like sisters before the whole incident happened* cooled down a little already thinking if there is any way to salvage this friendship. After all we have been closed friends for like 3 good years.

She: It wasn’t about you in the magazine but u never tell me at all. I gave you chance to tell by asking you about the magazine. But u refused to say. It really hurts me from the way you treat me. We used to be close friend yet you lied to me. I know you have no option and I tried to understand. But you can just tell me cos you are my god friend so I trust you. Erm and I were really out of the group at that time. It’s not I giving you cold shoulder just that we aren’t close as last time anymore. I also don’t wish to ruin this friendship but somehow I can’t go back to the same as we used to. Nvm, let bygone be bygone. You are still my friend don worry =) I meet you tomorrow white sand at 2 ya.

Me: You should know the situation at that time. I find that even if I tell you the truth, somehow it’s going to affect the progression of our group. There will be dispute between you and Edmund. I din’t want anything to happen so I chose to lie. Moreover this has nothing related to our project. Even if I choose to tell the truth. You will sometime still feel hurt. U will feel jealous as in why Edmund chose me instead of you. Am I right??!! But what you are saying now is like contradicting yourself. First you said you tried to understand everything but in the end you find that I am hurting you. Is it really such a big blow to you that we won’t be able to turn back time?! Wow!! If that’s the case I have nothing nice to say!!

here i am still waiting for your reply. i guess you won’t be replying.
i don’t see myself doing anything sorry to you. for the progression of the project everyone has to make a little sacrifice or to compromise each other.
those who know my leader well will understand how I feel and why I must do it this way.
since you don treasure it there is no point of me holding on.

失去一段友情，看透一个人心

2009-06-01T02:04:00.003+08:00

I don’t know why, but suddenly I do have this urge to create a blog just to vent out my frustrations/anger and also to share my happiness moment in life. And this damn thing took me almost a day to figure it out. The whole layout ended up just wasn’t up to my expectation!! NOOB

After a few hours of trying, I finally get a hand of it. And now here I am posting my first entry. Woohoo.

There are just too many things happening around me recently.

First is regarding my future.

Whether to accept NTU (Part-Time Triple E) offer or to study SIM-UOL (Accounting and Finance)?! This has been bothering me for the past few days. Moreover I can’t stay in the hostel and it is freaky far and the campus turns scary at night. Having lesson 7-10pm daily for the next 5 years is testing my endurance. I seriously find that local universities really do operate weirdly. Friends getting in after multiple try (3 times or more). Plus the numbers of applicants who apply were much more than the previous year due to the economy downturn. So suay right?

What do I fear about my decision! An indecisive state of mind. rawr.

I guess I had make up my mind is to study in SIM and get their first class honors or upper second class. I am gonna to be super hardworking as I had learnt from my mistake in poly (never to play/shop/eat/sleep/movies so much). I am going to aim high and be a well known auditor in the future.

Hopefully it will be a right choice that leads to a bright future =)

Second issue was that I quarreled with my brother for the past 2 days due to small matters. Ugh! I JUST CAN’T CONTROL MY TEMPER. Maybe I need to attend some anger management courses. I just simply find him pure irritating and childish.

Mummy: WHY CAN’T YOU GIVE IN TO YOUR YOUNGER BROTHER. YOU ARE OLDER THAN HIM BY 5 YRS, 5 YRS LE!! IT’S SUCH A BIG AGE GAP AND U WANT TO FIGHT WITH HIM OVER SMALL MATTERS

Me: HEY WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SO UNREASONABLE? HE’S IN THE WRONG FIRST AND WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS PROTECT HIM. HE IS 15 AFTERALL. SHOULD BE ABLE TO DIFFERENTIATE WHAT’S RIGHT AND WRONG. U ARE JUST TOO OVER PROTECTIVE OVER HIM. WHICH MAKES HIM THINKS THAT NO MATTER WHAT HE DOES HE HAVE YOU TO CLEAN THE MESS FOR HIM.

Blah Blah Blah. I am just too embarrasses to finish my story. Let your imagination runs wild from here.
(SLAM AND LOCKED MY DOOR).

Third issue: 失去一段友情，看透一个人心. It takes 3 years to see through a person. How scary can that be! I only happen to realize it only when my Major Project coming to end. I am just utterly disappointed in you. 彻底的失望. Just stop acting innocent in front of me. I just don’t give a damn it just makes me wanna PUKE!!

“NOTHING CAN BRING ME PEACE BUT MYSELF ”