my new found hobby : editing of blog codes.
i have also anti programming lessons in my poly life.
i had hated it so so much that i would go around asking seniors and friends from other courses to give me their codes. what’s worst was i never changed anything inside. i just don't understand a freaking line. i remembered the lecturer question me one of the lines and i got it wrong. surprisingly i managed to pass the subject.
“I AM LOST WITH NO DIRECTION AND MY FAITH IS SHAKING”
i felt irritated by your replied message. WTF!
can’t you just remember the damn amount of money you were supposed to return me??!!
why must you keep asking?!
& how dare you took the money from Mr Gary when you know you were supposed to return them to me.
when i ask you about it you said “ i am supposed to take it ” and you walked off.
it was photo taking time after our graduation and after which it slipped off my mind.
oh talking about it, woohooo i have graduated from Temasek Polytechnic, Diploma in Biomedical Informatics and Engineering. Time pass real fast. *Woots*
daddy and mummy
let’s come back to where we have stop. it was only on last friday that i realized she still owned me money.
went to call her. Guess what she said. “huh! why must i still pay you i thought i return you already.”
that sentence from her triggers me.
I said “What about the money that I paid and Edmund owned me? Remember we split the amount so each of you owned me $22 which makes it $66?” and she told me that she forgot about and promised to pay me back.
I felt purely disgusted by the way you replied. The story goes like this:
ME: Can you meet me at white sand tomorrow, 2pm instead?
She: Can later?
ME: Like what time?
She: You going Val’s house tomorrow right? How about when you going home that time?
ME: Ya, we going white sand to buy ingredient. But I won’t be going there after that. Like 2.30 can?
She: Okok 2 then. Btw you said you pay 60 right? If I pay you back 44 it will be 66 le.
ME: Hello!! I pay 66 le!! I’ll bring the piece of paper that we wrote how much each of us spent ok? (angry tone)
She: Oh is it? I don’t have the paper so I can’t remember. Cos that time you called and you said 60 and I wasn’t sure so I ask you again. Just like that only. Chill la.
Volcano had erupted. I was totally pissed off so I decided to confront via text message.
Me: I know there are lots of mis-understanding between us. Firstly I not sure why are you giving me cold shoulder, but if it’s because of the photo taking. Then I think we need to talk about it. I know I was in a wrong to lie to you in the first place but that’s because I was left with no other options. Edmund was the one who choice me and he wants me to tell you in a way that won’t affect him. That was why I lie to you about my Malay mono having problem. I guess we should like have a cup of coffee to clear all the mis-understanding. I don’t wish it’s because of this that ruined our 3 yrs long friendship.
*We were very closed friends, like sisters before the whole incident happened* cooled down a little already thinking if there is any way to salvage this friendship. After all we have been closed friends for like 3 good years.
She: It wasn’t about you in the magazine but u never tell me at all. I gave you chance to tell by asking you about the magazine. But u refused to say. It really hurts me from the way you treat me. We used to be close friend yet you lied to me. I know you have no option and I tried to understand. But you can just tell me cos you are my god friend so I trust you. Erm and I were really out of the group at that time. It’s not I giving you cold shoulder just that we aren’t close as last time anymore. I also don’t wish to ruin this friendship but somehow I can’t go back to the same as we used to. Nvm, let bygone be bygone. You are still my friend don worry =) I meet you tomorrow white sand at 2 ya.
Me: You should know the situation at that time. I find that even if I tell you the truth, somehow it’s going to affect the progression of our group. There will be dispute between you and Edmund. I din’t want anything to happen so I chose to lie. Moreover this has nothing related to our project. Even if I choose to tell the truth. You will sometime still feel hurt. U will feel jealous as in why Edmund chose me instead of you. Am I right??!! But what you are saying now is like contradicting yourself. First you said you tried to understand everything but in the end you find that I am hurting you. Is it really such a big blow to you that we won’t be able to turn back time?! Wow!! If that’s the case I have nothing nice to say!!
here i am still waiting for your reply. i guess you won’t be replying.
i don’t see myself doing anything sorry to you. for the progression of the project everyone has to make a little sacrifice or to compromise each other.
those who know my leader well will understand how I feel and why I must do it this way.
since you don treasure it there is no point of me holding on.
失去一段友情，看透一个人心
